Some more make-over to this place.  I hope I'm not overdoing it, but if I am, oh well, the only thing I would take off would be the song, and I'd only replace it.  Hm....nothing to write about...

Ah.  In Orchestra, my friend Jill and I continue to be the two best freshman second violin players.  I've noticed that alot of the students in our class...I'm sorry to say it so blunt, but, can't play.  Not just freshman either.  Upperclassmen have a hard time on the Corelli peice we're practicing now.  A few, well, several of the 2nd violin freshman players, are worse though...one girl doesn't even know her basic fingering, so she needs stickers.  I doubt that she'd be able to pick it up and play better with the finger tabs in place, and she should know how to do a D scale by now, it's practically one of the 1st things you learn when learning hjow to play the violin. 

I know that some people are jealous of our (Jill and I) playing.  Jealous of how good we are, so they trash us.  One girl, yesterday said, "I'm getting tired of you good players," with a hint of hostility in her voice.  Unfortunately I said something smart back, "If you're so tired of us, why don't you get better or leave?  And if you get better, will you be tired of yourself?".  That one threw me for a loop...how people can say things like that.  Including me.

Jill's bow was stolen.  We accidentally put eachothers' bow in our cases, so when we opened up our violin cases, her bow was missing from my case, and my bow was in her case.  Luckily, Jill had an extra bow at home, she calls it her backup bow.  I don't mean to sound selfish or anything, but it's a good thing that it was her bow stolen and now mine because I don't have a backup bow.  I only have one, and now I'm scared...that it might get stolen.  Someone was obviously trying to get me upset...what a coincidence that it happened the day before our playing test today.  I hope it wasn't the girl that was jealous of me, now there's a whole new conflict....I'm scared to leave my instrument in that room now, and I have to buy a lock to lock it up, regardless of the fact that I don't have the money to buy one, and neither does my mother, so I won't even bother asking.  I'll keep my violin in my regular coat/book locker until I can find a better solution, because this can't be tolerated.  Now I'm worrying because I know that I didn't take my instrument home for the weekend and I could just as easily come back on Monday to find that I have no bow.  And who know how much longer until I have one again, that's mine.  I don't know how much bows' cost, but it's not like I could just go buy one.  It won't ever work like that, and right now is too much of a crucial time to have some idiot be mean and steal my bow.  God, please don't let anything happen to my stuff over the weekend......please.....

If any of you can relate or understand what I feel like, please, send me positive energy and good thoughts and prayers.  I'm really worried, someone could pop all my strings or steal my pegs or break my bridge or smash my whole violin...or steal my bow...TT_TT Please, help me pray.

Ja Ne.